Can you pay my bills, pay my telephone bills.....

Ok, so yeah. My internet service has been disconnected because my broke ass didn't keep up on the payment. Then I let it sit off too long and they disconnected completely so it'll cost me an extra $100 to get it reconnected on top of the $150 or so that I already owe. I'm determined to avoid asking my parents for money. Damn pride. So, I'll probably be back in action after 12/1 since my roommate finally moved in which should save me around $300/mo at least. Maybe....

I don't think you do, sooo, u and me r thru......
-D

Lesson 2: Reclaiming your Masculinity

Drop the she-speak. Ok, yeah I know we don't all do this but a lot do. I have friends that answer the phone "hey girl" no matter who's calling. Ok so yeah I say it to one of my friends for kicks to make fun of it. If your friend is in a foul mood, don't ask another friend, "what's her problem?" Or if your friend takes a long time to get ready. Don't say "she's still trying to pull herself together" Stop with the pronoun reversal, it confuses even those in the know sometimes. The real lesson here is, you and your gay male friends are not sisters, aunts, mothers, girlfriends or any other family member for that matter. We were born male and given male names and deserve the correct pronouns. USE THEM!

PS, You will also never be a strong black woman! ( thx Gill)

-D

When I get that feelin'..........

Ok, no this isn't a rant about needing to get laid, although, as most would agree, ya need it occasionally. Fortunately for me this week that hasn't been a problem. I know it's tacky to discuss your sexual life amongst friends and even moreso to post for public viewing. But I could care less cuz I'm gonna anyway. If you don't wanna know then move along. So I got some Saturday, Sunday and Monday. 3 guys in 3 days, yikes what a whore! All top experiences with guys I've known for a long while and of course all safe. I won't play any other way. I have a variety of moods going on, I wanna get laid but I would also like a boyfriend again or both. So I thought about giving it a rest for a while. Even it needs R&R sometimes. So it's been on vacation since Tuesday (as if it's a person) but now it's Friday and sleepytime is over.

Maybe it's just me but why is it sometimes we feel like we can't get a boyfriend/girlfriend unless we're practically celibate? Personally to me I'd rather have a boyfriend that's had a variety of experiences and knows what he does and doesn't like. I admit this week has been unusually active for me but maybe I'm still in that phase of finding out what I do and do not like :-) Sounds like good enough justification for me. If not for you, then so long!

......I want sexual healing!!!!!! YEAAAAAAAAh BAAAbyy

-D

Gotta do what's best for me... baby and that means I gotta...........

I overslept this morning, missed my Doctor appt and had to reschedule. Which was probably a good thing cuz I want to give my ankle another week to heal. Yes, like a dumbass, I attempted to play volleyball on it last night and am paying the price today. This whole experience spraining my ankle has taught me a valuable lesson. and that lesson is, GET OFF YOUR FAT ASS AND EXERCISE!!!!!!!! Seriously, a few years ago I dropped 30 pounds and then got a boyfriend, got comfortable, ate like there was no tomorrow and stopped working out. No, sex is not enough of a workout to keep the weight off. Thus 3 years later I've gained 35 pounds back and am single again. Unfortunately I'm not one of those people that loses weight after a "divorce." Apparently I eat my feelings and everything else. As if I have feelings that need eating right now. I actually feel good about it. Anyway, enough pointless rambling for now.

Glad the work week is over.

Shake it off!!!!

-D

It's swell with two people.

Ok, so I haven't ranted yet how tough it is being single and gay in this shit town. For once in my life getting laid isn't a problem but I'm over it already. That didn't take long. I've been single since June and have probably turned down or short changed a few guys that expressed interest almost instantly after my break up because I wasn't wanting to be tied down again so soon. So that period ( I said period) didn't last long. So now I'm in that lonely phase that always happens after a break up. I hang with friends as much as I can but it's in the QC and I'm pretty much broke barely paying the bills that area always piling up. Does this sound like a country song yet? No my dog isn't dead and I have no words of inspiration or whatever. So today I was chatting and agreed to meet this guy at Starbucks. He was sort of a pushy type wanted to meet or me to call him. These types annoy the hell out of me, but I'm desperate enough to take a chance that I might actually like him. First impressions aren't everything. Apparently he was astounded that I could carry on a conversation beyond "how big is it?" So just had to meet me. Anywayz. I'll post a blog on how it goes.

You do it to yourself, ya do, you and no one else.....

Um, yeah guess what I just did! :-)

-D

He had a lot to say, he had a lot of nothing to say............

Ok, so today was kind of fun. Well as fun as hell can be. I worked 10 hours, came home made myself some Chicken Curry with Coconut milk which is one of my favorite meals and drank hot tea. Yup I'm coming down with a cold or something. I've been running a fever all day and have been coughing and congested since I woke up this morning. Anyway I finally made major progress on the children's paintings I've needed to finish for the last 2 weeks. All I have left to do is some touch up and highlighting and I'll be done. Nothing major. It's kinda excited to be painting again. I'm far from a good painter but it's a fun hobby and a good creative outlet. And assuming the buyer likes them these 4 paintings will be the first art I've ever sold. $10/ painting, I know it's cheap but hell I'm new at this. So far I've spent like 12 hours actually working on the paintings. So it doesn't even pay minimum wage. I can see where they get the whole starving artist expression from now. But I can't complain I'm overdrawn about $40 until I get paid next monday so this $40 will get gas in my car and some groceries to last me until then. Whoever said art was good for nothing? Oh yeah, that was my parents. At least haven't had to borrow money from them. YET

..........We'll miss him, we're gonna miss him. Tool Rocks!!!!