Tuesday, January 31, 2006

The need to express, to communicate

Here are a couple of cool art links I found. And this is the 2nd time I'm typing this damn message.

This first one deals with the downtown NYC art scene 1974-1984 and the 2nd link is just a painter I stumbled on that made me want to see more.

http://www.nyu.edu/greyart/exhibits/downtown/dthome.htm

http://www.mtrgraphics.com/dotweb/index.htm

Can I just tell you.....

Can I just tell you, my space blogs suck. I once again lost a long blog I had typed about my inability to feel alive when I'm at work. But my browser froze and I had to reboot just as I'd ended my rant. So I'll give you the abridged version:

Life's a bitch and then I died.

-D

Tuesday, January 24, 2006

Chase VISA sucks.

Ok so yeah, as my blog has reflected late last year I got behind on a lot of my bills. Well I finally started a slow recovery when my roommate moved in mid-November. After the holidays I was in good shape and everything appeared to be caught up. I was even able to buy gifts for the children in my family. Well then I received my January Chase statement and my minimum payment was about 8 times what it normally is. I always pay online so I still have my statements and can view the stubs. I knew I'd paid on time because I'd had trouble getting everything paid for 2-3 months and was trying my best to avoid more late fees. So I looked at my statements and realized that I'd paid $1 short on my December statement. I know this was my bonehead mistake, but thought wow it was a $1 seemed hardly fair $1 should end up costing me $74. So I called them up and they wouldn't waive it referencing the "cardmember" agreement. I work in customer service I waive fees and charges every day but she wouldn't budge. After working 10 hours I wasn't ready to start a fight with the poor slug who answered the phones. So I figured I'd bitch about it on here.

I feel like MIchael Douglas in that movie Falling Down. Was that the one where he just fucking loses it and takes a baseball bat to the Fast Food restaurant when they wouldn't serve him breakfast five minutes after the cut off time? This has put me in a bad mood because I've already sent my normal minimum payment this month on time and can't afford to come up with the difference they're asking for until I get paid again. Which means I'll probably have to pay another $74 on top of the already exorbitent (sp?) $74 charges. I think I feel steam coming out of my ears. Just another example of corporate America sticking it to the honest workin man.

Takin' what they givin', cuz I'm working for a livin'....

-D

PS: I'll give your blog kudos if you can name the song and artist of my ending lyrics.

Monday, January 9, 2006

Brokeback Mountain, movie review.... beware some spoilers

Ok, so I saw Brokeback Mountain last night with 3 friends. The big homo opening weekend, well in the Quad Cities anyway. So let me first start by saying I thought the movie was just OK. I figure I will receive some negative comments about this one, so I'll explain a few things.

I had a problem with the brevity of character development in this movie. These two guys fall in love and have a hidden relationship for around 20 years which in itself is heartbraking. But this movie just lacked the emotion one would expect from a story of such longing. I never got the sense that either of them longed for each while apart. They get married, have families, and continue this relationship as "fishing buddies" Which sounds like a great premise but I wasn't pulled into the emotions these characters would feel. Their initial tryst was so unexpected and bordered on violence. I might be putting myself into the characters too much but after a quick roll in the hay that borders on rape I doubt very much I'm going to fall in love with the guy.

They part ways after that summer and don't see each other again for 4 years. At which time they tear into each like rabid dogs in heat! ?? Why? It just seemed like the director short changed us on HOW these guys fell in love. Too little time was spent on the development of this all consuming love in order to show off-center shots of mountains, sheep and running water. Again this could be my lack of understanding the characters. Possibly this stern cowboy exterior was why less emotion was shown. Could it have been intentional? On their next time together there was a brief bed time together where they talked intimately. I felt that scene could have been included earlier in the movie as it would better illustrate this sense of intimacy they would long for 4 years later. Also since the movie takes place over 20 years I lost track of time. It was so random, back and forth between their lives with family and their times together on the mountain. I mean throwing a moustache on Jake Gyllenhall doesn't make him 20 years older. Give 'em both beer guts and graying hair, that I could believe. At times the acting was good but dialogue seemed so forced. I just didn't get swept up in the story. The one emotion I felt was sadness for Ennis' wife and family.

Ok, so now I'll tell you what things I did like. I liked them making out after not seeing each other 4 years. Rough and tumble, that was very convincing. Almost every scene Michelle Williams was in , was a keeper. Heather Ledger's accent while dead on, was also almost inaudible at times but overall very good job. Jake Gyllenhall was actually more emotionally effective as a guy repeatedly heartbroken by not being able to be with his man exclusively. And the scene where Ennis is anticipating Jack's arrival where he's flipping the lighter and smoking one cig after another was effective.

But overall, I just kept anticipating that I would be more emotionally involved in the story and it would be a tearjerker. It wasn't. As for this hype created around it. Eh, I think anything that pisses off the religious freaks is a plus. And I read today that the movie wasn't shown in Salt Lake City. Anyway, long review short, my recommendation if you're looking for a tearjerker including gay characters this season then watch the movie version of the musical Rent or wait for it to come out on DVD. That made me cry twice. I'm such a girl.



Mama Don't let your Babies grow up to be Cowboys....(in bareback I mean brokeback mountain)

Comment away,

-D

Friday, January 6, 2006

Can I get a AMEN?!?!?!?!?!?!

Thank God or whoever that the holidays are over. If I eat one more piece of fudge or rice crispy treat, I think I'l fucking explode. I really have nothing more to say. But rambling is my specialty, so here goes:

Lately I have been so starved for new music. Is it just me or does music suck more now than it did in the late 80's? I mean, let's consider all the rapid advances in techonology since say 1989. Basically Ipod's and MP3's make it easier than ever to listen to the music you want. But I've definitely turned my back on new music to listen to old stuff again. I went through a soul music stage, collected about 10 CD's then before I lost internet service I started getting into the "cool as folk" station on yahoo messenger. Being a shitty guitarist myself I've always appreciated folkie music or any type of music that included guitars. But I miss rock music. Someone had to explain to me what the hell EMO was. Am I the only one that doesn't get the distinction between that and various other forms of hard rock music. So many clones out there, I don't hear a distinctive rock voice. I hear a lot of bands that sound like blink 182 and bands that took over Creed's shlock rock place. Maybe I am just being too lazy to look so hard to find music that doesn't make me wanna ram a pencil into each eardrum. Maybe I've just reached that age that I don't give a shit about new music anymore. Probably a little of both.

I wanna be sedated.....

-D.

Who are you, and what do you want?

My patience is wearing thin. Relax I'm not some ticking timebomb waiting for the optimum time to take down my coworkers in a hail of bullets. But I'm just sick and tired. I've been down with the sickness for about a week now. Congestion, body aches and pains, pounding headaches, sensitivity to light, fevers. You name another cold, flu, sinus sympton and I've probably experienced it this week. Even my teeth are sensitive to cold for the first time. All of this on top of working about 9 hours of overtime this week. Overall this is making me cranky, especially to my fellow myspace bloggers and to some coworkers and customers.

Sorry, ya'll.

-D